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‘I felt like I lost a part of me’: How Camille Mays finds peace after gun violence took her son

November 11, 2020 by Matt Martinez 7 Comments

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Losing her son to gun violence has forced Camille Mays to identify ways to cope. She now has over 100 houseplants that she tends to regularly. On days when she loses her purpose, the plants are always there, and they fuel her to press on. (Photo by Adam Carr)

For more than four years, Camille Mays has planted peace gardens in Milwaukee for victims of homicide.

The gardens are meant to provide a place for families to visit and pay their respects after the city tears down memorial sites for them. It’s a simple gesture, she said, but one that has brought her close to the families of many victims.

“My heart went out to the families of people, you know?” Mays said. “I just couldn’t imagine what it would be like. And I always tell them, ‘I don’t understand, and I’m sorry. I hope I don’t ever understand.’”

On Nov. 10, 2019, the tragedy of homicide became personal.

Her son, Darnell Woodard II, called Booka by his family, was killed by two gunmen when they robbed him during a drug deal. Booka, the oldest of her sons, was 19. Mays suddenly had her world turned upside down.

“I felt like I lost a part of me,” Mays said.

Like mother, like son

Mays, a 43-year-old Sherman Park resident, always knew that her son was like her: fearless and ready to jump into anything. He laughed at one of his robbers before they killed him. But it wasn’t until he died that she realized how much he had taken after her until friends and neighbors came forward to talk about times that he had helped them.

Mays said Booka did things for his younger brother, like paying his phone bill and checking in on his grades. He was also a mentor in the life of a little boy, one of their neighbors, something Mays never knew about until after Booka died. He was very protective of his family, too.

Camille Mays stands in the peace garden she made in memory of her son Booka, who was killed in November 2019. (Photo by Sue Vliet)

“He was like a teddy bear inside,” Mays said. “My Booka didn’t fool with anyone he didn’t know, but if he knew you, his heart was gold.”

In the immediate aftermath of the homicide, Mays was surrounded by family and friends and received much media attention. Things got even harder after the first two weeks.

“Two weeks after is when everything disappears,” Mays said. “When all the support and the food and the people, it disappears. And I never thought about that part of it as I was calling and checking on those people throughout all the years.

“That’s why it meant so much to them, because people drop off,” she said. “They forget or they move on or it’s the next news story or they dismiss one of the stories with drugs or something else.”

Mays said she was thankful for the support she received but realized that other families don’t always have as many people checking in on them. She said every family should be able to get that support.

“It should be more outreach, more people checking in and more people doing stuff after, because we are not OK,” Mays said.

Mays doesn’t mind saying it. She’s not OK. She’s traumatized. She still offers peace gardens but doesn’t go to vigils or gatherings anymore because of how emotionally heavy they are. Even movies and music can be triggering for her, making her relive emotions from the shooting.

‘There’s no textbook for this’

She’s not OK — but she’s learning to live with it.

Slowly, she has begun a long healing process and is willing to talk about it.

First, she had to find somebody to talk to. She’s found that talking helps, but only a few can truly understand. Where therapy has fallen short for her, talking with people who have experienced the same violence has helped her to heal.

“I don’t care how much therapy training you have, how many degrees you have, if you haven’t been through it,” Mays said. “You can give me a textbook explanation, and there’s no textbook for this.”

Mays said she finds strength in other people who have been through it, and that they’ve helped her heal.

Mays also finds strength in mindfulness. In the last year, she’s turned to yoga, meditation, Himalayan salt lamps and baths, and healing crystals. She’s also tried reiki, a Japanese method of stress relief.

She turned to some much-needed peaceful distractions as well. She said she has gotten into coloring and even painting lately. It’s important to have something to take your mind off of negative thoughts and find peace, she said.

Finding peace in the garden

In addition, Mays still gardens. She now has over 100 houseplants that she tends to regularly. On days when she loses her purpose, the plants are always there, and they fuel her to press on.

“It’s just like a constant reminder to change and grow,” Mays said. “We just got to nurture ourselves and things. It just reminds me of growth. It’s always something new. It’s always a new leaf.”

Mays said she also relies on her family and friends. She said she is blessed to have the support of a circle of friends and wanted to acknowledge them, including her fiancé.

Mays was engaged to Greg on Dec. 31, 2019. She said Greg has helped and supported her through the healing process and often reminds her to take care of herself.

“If I’m really stressed, he’ll make me just completely stop and sit down, because I’ll drive myself into anxiety sometimes,” she said.

Greg will also tell her when it’s time for her to pamper herself, meaning it might be time to get her nails done or get a massage.

Mays said everyone should be able to be pampered, but she also recognizes the tough economic realities. People can barely afford basic needs in our communities, Mays said, let alone pampering. People that might need that healing the most simply can’t get it.

It’s still a struggle, Mays said, but she’s looking to the future. She hopes to keep serving the community, through her flowers and through her words. She also serves on the Community Collaborative Commission, which gives input on community policing and police-community relations. And she has a wedding to plan.

She finds strength every day to keep going. But one of her greatest sources of strength remains, and always will be, her late son.

“I know that Booka wouldn’t want me to be sad and be down. He would want me to continue,” she said. “It’s hard to explain, but the very thing that brings you down is what picks us up, motivates us to keep pushing.”

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Matthew, a 2020 Marquette University graduate, joins Milwaukee NNS as part of Report For America, a program that seeks to strengthen local journalism by placing journalists in communities that have a greater need for issues based reporting. Prior to joining NNS, Matt developed his reporting skills at the Marquette Wire, on the investigative desk, covering issues such as housing, human trafficking and health care in the Milwaukee.

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  1. AvatarJulie says

    November 11, 2020 at 9:18 am

    I would appreciate any advise on how to get in contact with this amazing woman.

    I would like to contribute to her beautiful gardens that she plants for all that have passed.

    Please email me with any info would be greatly appreciated.

    Jujuwellinger1@gmail.com

    Thank you and God Bless

    Julie

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  2. AvatarEmanuel+zepnick says

    November 12, 2020 at 6:29 pm

    Ms Mays . I feel your pain , especially the los of your oldest child , who was a role model and mentor to his younger siblings that make your pain a litter harder . Ms mays instead of walowing in your sorows , you are makina difference in Sherman park . Speaking about Sensless violence Planting a Beautiful memorial Garden to REFLECT . On a personal note , ms Mays , I am Happy that you have found Love with a Kind Supportative fiance . You son , looking down will be proud of his mother with a smile and a message . i love you mom .

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    • AvatarDr Jennifer Potts says

      November 14, 2020 at 4:07 pm

      Thanks for your post it brings comfort

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  3. AvatarDr Jennifer Potts says

    November 14, 2020 at 4:07 pm

    Camille is a beautiful person that has always gone the extra mile for our community on the Northside a d especially on Center Street. She has always given of her time and talent and has brought her children with her, including Booka. She never has asked for anything but has helped others with her last. We love her so much. She is a true community leader and she is always there for many. She sat with and always checked on my sister after my nephew Nehemiah was murdered and even after the loss of Booka she still checks on my sister. This is a real life hero and there should be resources to help us on the Northside. Dr. Jennifer Potts, BID39 Executive Director

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  4. AvatarJan Marie Weiler says

    November 15, 2020 at 2:00 pm

    I worked with Camille in the Sherman Park neighborhood. I know her passion for children and those that have little is a driving force for her to help. I am happy to hear her talk about the healing she has embarked on this past year. Others need to listen to her and use some of those strategies. Keep the faith Camille. You are a strong, smart person. You will survive this and thrive to help others.

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    • AvatarAnne Stadler Vaillancourt says

      November 19, 2020 at 10:41 am

      Thank you for doing an article on Camille Mays. Though I have never met Camille, I am familiar with her community work and support for others grieving the violent death of a loved one. Always thought her creating garden memorials with the grieving families was such a loving and brilliant idea. Recently I have been thinking of her when driving past some street memorials on 76th street. I was hoping that she was doing ok and healing her heart after her son had passed away.

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  5. AvatarJeff says

    December 9, 2020 at 1:56 pm

    So much appreciation for Ms Mays, her Love and her Spirit, strengthening our community. And thank you M Martinez / NNS for this report.

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